8-13-2013

I LOVE this sign/message that I see right before my eyes right now...Reminds me when I was a young boy wanting to have my mom proud of me and then maybe she wouldn't drink and hit anymore. Oh that belief right there says show so much to the adult that is typing this, in this moment.  The day I began to visualize I would dance and teach like the One on the screen and years later embraced that dream and continue by Accepting the GIFT that came to BE.

As an adult the work I do now is teaching/supporting/guiding in how to be proud of One's self...to stand in the LOVE of One's self....to stand in One's OWN personal power. I teach others how to connect with the Whispers of LOVE in One's very OWN Soul/Spirit/Human contract. To hear, feel and see the Spirit of past in LOVE. This is connection…This is the Unity of One.

Yes as an adult I do want people to be happy! Yes, as an adult I do want people to be proud of me. Yes, as an adult I do want people to LOVE me. For I AM human and in order to do the work I am the only One, who must learn how to LOVE myself. I have always LOVED to "please" people. I LOVED to make them feel good.

These tears that have resided within pouring through the words in which one sees are “seemed” as pains of lifetime patterns that release and release…GOD/GODDESS I truly AM so tired of crying…I AM so tired of leaving or somehow ………someway…….. “needing” to push away what I believed to BE LOVE. To hear within what is even “seemed” to be judgment…as I know to be my OWN personal assessment of what is toxic for me is toxic for ALL. For he, she, thee and me contribute in ALL ways to the fear and LOVE that co-creates this World, above and below is that of what is ALL around.

I AM so tired of lies, cheats, screams, rage, and violence. ABUSE that seems to come from outside of me., he and she. While in the knowingness, I in many energetic ways contribute to this through the many levels of my OWN evolutionary existence.  My life mission has been about uncovering ALL that is unseen that was and has been “seemed” believed as destructive. I vowed to never hurt anyone in the ways that were done onto me, while knowing in many “unseen” energetic ways I did. I owned and apologized and did my best to change.  I am in the knowing that what I owned and apologized for was really not mine to own. I AM in acceptance of what was done was done. It is neither my desire nor my intention to beat anybody up and relive the past, let alone myself. Yet I did. My intention is to always embrace the life I lived as the greatest GIFT…YOU ALL OF YOU, I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART!

One LOVE within beliefs One was “too old” and One was “too young” energetically pushing One away continuing to always express LOVE held inside.  It was said the experience through the years One “should” have ran long ago. Who is One to judge when One is doing what they do in compromise.

One LOVE within a belief I would stray and chose to do what “seemed” to be predicted for me to do.  I stopped for somehow I knew what had been done and unspoken by One.  An Angel of bleach blonde of truth had appeared and whispered and affirmed what resided within this very place was true. I chose to be the One to leave and untied the knots. It was so “hard” to let go… I believed during that time I’d end it by running and running so far I landed in another state.  Within a week or so I convinced myself through within the outer experiences, I had forgiven within the excuse of I couldn’t live without One LOVE. I traveled back begging, pleading and even seduced while being seduced of energy ignited from within.

One LOVE within a belief One would do and fix what was done by One that then became two. I accepted what was “seemed” to be true in the knowing I was living in a lie.

“You made your bed, you lye in it.” As what One and One would always say. “You knew what you were getting into.” Another statement that One, One and One in many would say, including me.

As I think and feel "One who got away"....I am right here, in this place never far away... "happily"...well that is seen in what is believed to be "unseen"...It maybe he...it maybe me....it may even be she....What IS......is LOVE shown through the actions of One's very OWN heart. One ran away for something was hidden away. Through the years One created the chains that held the pain so secretly within....What seemed to be unseen becomes so seen through the dance of song traveling through the years within the whispers of One within many. I LOVE YOU so as we continue to do what we do.

I committed in a vow to LOVE forever through ALL eternity. So how do I do this for me in the knowing I am here to do for he, she and thee (you) and what I have done has always been for me as well. The answer is by doing for me, this I know oh so deep within and all around….As he does for he. She does for she and you do for you, in your very OWN life…In your Unique very OWN “special” ways…the experiences we have created together that brought us to today, I cherish ever so. We may be apart in another state, office or even a park. With ALL my heart , this I KNOW. I LOVE YOU ever so!

Left here to clean up what somehow I created to be “seemed” as ALL on my OWN. Digging deep within the caverns of One's very own heart tears rest upon a pillow within hope and faith to uncover LOVE of true. For blessings always bestow forever amore from within this very place carrying through time and space of so mote it BE.