10-5-2025

Uuuuummm my Spirit is not as technology savvy today or My Human self isn't technology savvy today. Programs are moving slowly. Files have been moved around...UUUUUGGHHH....I believe this is a sign to just stop with computer stuff for tonight. I have accomplished much in a short amount of time within the years and years of building...creating...co-creating....dismantling...walking away from...going back to it to find poof it all comes together in a blink of an eye. The Vision that has always been manifesting through the Moons and Suns...The days and nights have not always been the same...had the same feelings....thoughts....actions....

While the Vision within that was Inspired through the winds of Time. Experiences that many was not what I expected. Then disappoint seeps in...This I've come to practice saying that's ok...Someday...maybe even later on today. A Dream...A Hope...A Wish...A Prayer...An Intention...the manifestation within ALL that CAN come to Be. It's all about choice. Love or Fear...Fear and Love...dance to the beat within Sacred Song. A day like today is what is within the play. The joy in laughter. The eyes that sparkle as light from within can brighten the darkest of times. I miss that feeling I once had with only that one man...Yes there are many that I carry within this chest. Love Unique to each. I stand in my place for I know the lines that shall not be crossed. There was written to be a day of Vows that by the Powers that Be were not meant to happen. Everything became such a mess...There are many regrets I carry. My heart fell sooooooo broken...In many many ways I was reliving the pains of my past over and over again...No matter how many times I spoke and acted from my heart. My Trust had been broken. The button had been pushed and a bomb within a chest was about to explode. The sparks that were ignited were not warning enough for One so I had to run.

I have missed the warmth within a pretzel wrap every single day since we fell into a trap.